What I've Learned from My Divorce
No Artificial Intelligence was used in writing this post
I want to preface this in saying I will NEVER bash anyone publicly via my various platforms. Despite the complete disrespect and betrayal I’ve endured, I wish no harm on anyone from me sharing my experience.
For those following my niche-less content for over a decade now and for those just joining the party, I was married for over 14 years.
One of my biggest regrets was leaving Tesla. When my spouse was offered an opportunity, we decided to uproot. Let me back it up….2020 ruined everything.
2020 gave me a mental breakdown that has been ongoing since. We were happy before we bought our house. Owning a house is something I have learned from….
Owning vs renting an apartment means you owe not only mortgage, but about $500-$1000 worth of bills on top to just maintain the home. Then there is the upkeep-cleaning, stairs, lawn and gardening, etc. Not to mention, you want a pool? Have fun panicking it’s gonna explode into your house. Live under trees? Have fun during the bomb cyclones….so when we had the chance to move to California, somewhere I’ve long since been programmed to dream for, we took it.
Both of us had debilitating panic attacks leading up to the move. When we got down there, it was a culture shock to both of us; not only with the Bay Area, but the company culture, too. I have always been a little prophetic and I could not shake the fact that something big was going to happen-whether an earthquake, a job loss, etc-I KNEW something was going to go down.
The reason we moved back was not just one thing but a lot-we both regret giving up so fast but we both got job opportunities back in Washington that led us to believe it was the right choice.
Coming back was the worst-going from a massive home to a tiny apartment with two horrendously behaved dogs sucked. Something happened in him that made him turn. I am pretty sure it was the shock of the entire thing.
I remember having the most vivid of dreams: he was driving us in his Model 3 and drove us right off a cliff in May of last year (the time I went to Hawaii alone to escape the madness).
Fast forward, I caught him. The irony how is not lost on me (Sentry Mode). It feels reeeeeeeaaallllllyyyyy shitty to have EVERY SINGLE PERSON who is supposed to love you just stop. We haven’t lived together since.
Not only did this happen, but a LOT of other stuff happened within my family dynamic as well. People who were there for me just stopped being there and others made up HORRENDOUS lies. Some reached out to HIM over ME. I went back to people that don’t make me feel like my best self and I had to do a lot of therapy to get to the place I am now to realize the influence over my well-being.
My biggest advice: Stay Away From Alcohol. I am watching it destroy so many lives. I have done so many things I wish I didn’t under the influence and I can confidently say it broke up my marriage. It ruins you even after you stop. It is a SPIRIT-yep, a demonic spirit. Don’t trust yourself or any decisions you make under the influence or you just might sell your house and move 5 times to get divorced.
After months of weekly therapy (I graduated!) and abstaining from booze (i’ve drank maybe 4 times total since January and I am not completely “sober”), I signed my petition to divorce this week. This week I also feel spiritually at war with legit Satan himself. EVERYTHING has gone wrong trying to stop this from happening. First my printer wouldn’t work. I order another one, it doesn’t show up. I e-sign; I put the time instead of location for “signed at”. I turn the papers in, they won’t work so I have to e-sign again. I accidentally got my shift start time wrong at work and was super embarrassed. I came home to my dogs having eaten my chapstick and blowing up a shitstorm on the carpets.
I KNOW that because I have handled this thing with grace and done all the “right things”, my time to shine is coming. I have been working on this website for a decade now. I’ve studied an insane amount about content creation and various social media platforms. I abstain from bad decision making. I read my Bible every day-multiple times if needed. I wear the Full Armor of God. I don’t give up and I keep going.
No matter what you are going through, remember Jesus. There was a lot of good happening throughout the bad-focus on that. I am where I belong (on the shores of Lake Washington) at home, I am starting to get more opportunities at work, I get to follow the Seahawks again (I posted on Threads today that my dream matchup for the Super Bowl is Raiders vs Seahawks-Pete was coach when I was part of the team and it would be an excellent storyline for the NFL…it is also on my 44th birthday in the Bay), I get to go to church, I know my limits, I know what I won’t allow in my life, I get my fav schedule for the next 3 months, I can paddle board on the lake any time I want, the sweet justice that happened with Tesla (told you I was prophetic) making me not regret leaving anymore, I am basically living in a 4 star hotel, it’s almost Fall, and so much more.
I learned today through my research (TikTok) that just ONE person having achieved enlightenment/higher vibrational frequencies can uplift 70,000 PEOPLE without doing anything! My entire life mission is to inspire you and uplift humanity so ima keep on vibing high over here and let the ripples flow your way.
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